[Garrett? John had laughed. Tenderness replaced by momentary disgust. Ward didn't need to see it to know that it was there. That he judged him for it.]
I know that.
[Why can't they cut it out? Or do some kind of surgery to get rid of it? He buries his head in his hands, trying, Trying to keep his cool.]
As long as you believe that? You're a monster on a leash someone else holds.
Love is yours. Claim it. Own it. Sink your teeth in and make it submit if you must, but don't wallow in how little you deserve it. That's not how this works. That's not how anything works.
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I know that.
[Why can't they cut it out? Or do some kind of surgery to get rid of it? He buries his head in his hands, trying, Trying to keep his cool.]
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It doesn't mean more than you make it.
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[ Please Ward she's neither stupid, young, nor new to the idea of covers, handlers, and observers. ]
You're worried about being observed or about being known?
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Seeing one of these in any capacity shows you have a weakness.
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[ And she'll keep staring at him because that's how a black widow do. ]
It shows you have an emotional range.
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...And you of all people think that's a good thing.
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I think you've confused a lack of emotion with knowing how to manage them.
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...I manage them just fine.
[obviously not]
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Sure you do, soldier.
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....You really don't see this as a weakness do you?
[he points at the mark on his arm]
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I think Americans put too much stock into what love means. What purpose it serves.
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[ But even she was a child once. Not that she's telling. ]
But everything has it's uses.
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But there's gotta be a story behind that.
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[ A shrug. ]
There are a lot of stories.
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[ But she's narrowing her eyes at you, Ward, because sometimes you have very strange reactions to things. ]
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...I'm a monster.
Monsters don't love people.
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It doesn't work that way.
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Love is yours. Claim it. Own it. Sink your teeth in and make it submit if you must, but don't wallow in how little you deserve it. That's not how this works. That's not how anything works.